Our little bean

Yesterday started off with a frantic run to the doctors office as Tanya started to experience some bleeding. Now, maybe it wasn't all that much.... but it might as well have been a pint for all the freaking out we did.

I think I'm starting to like this Dr Bebla guy... he really put us at ease. The ultrasound still showed our little bean with it's heart ticking away at 150 beats a minute.

One good thing that came out of the scenario was that I got this little image of our bean to put up here.

As of now everything is okay

- Scott

Sometimes dreams do come true...

We saw the little bean yesterday with it's little heart ticking along at 141 beats a minute. The obstetrician sees everything as just fine.

It really makes you wonder about Tanya's dreams.

Tanya walked out saying "maybe it is communicating with me." I don't doubt the power of the mothering instinct.

In related news that really doesn't matter considering how positive this news is.... the printer on the ultrasound wasn't working... so no picture to put up here as I had hoped.

I do think I will hassle the hospital about finding a way to get us one.

- Scott

Dreams

So we drove 130 miles to get our 5th wheel camper yesterday... then 130 miles back. Mom... being the ever lazy bum that she is, spent half the ride asleep.

"I had a dream everything was okay" she woke and said.

Now I'm not one to place faith in much of anything,let alone dreams. However, Tanya rarely remembers her dreams. The last dream she remembered was that she was pregnant... and voila, she was.

Maybe Mom and baby have a connection (well.... obviously they do) and subconsciously she knows the baby is there.... and that it is okay.

It helps that my research shows pretty clearly that her lab results were potentially too close to give a clear suggestion of a problem. Also there are a number of factors that could be playing here... some of which we know are indeed factors. Besides, there's been no other signs of a problem.

So I will hope... I will hope some more... and I will be there for Tanya every step of the way.

Tomorrow I believe we will see that tiny little heart beat... and we can get back to the joy we have been feeling. Right now our emotions are on hold... all we can do is fight back the worry with hope.

- Scott

On the edge of being devestated...

Lab numbers (HCG) aren't rising the way they should.... not a good sign.

I'm so sorry she had to get this news on her birthday.

She deserves to have a beautiful little baby so that she can be the best mom ever... I hope it's a fluke and things work out.

Well... ultrasound and meeting with the doctor on Monday.

- Scott

It's Mommy's B-day

It's mommy's birthday today!!!!!!

She is laying in bed right now..... she is so beautiful, so peaceful, such a wonderful person.

There is absolutely no one else I could even imagine enjoying this journey through life with..... she is going to be such a good mom.... she has already been an amazing wife.

The future holds such endless possibilities..... years of joy together with our beautiful child.

I love you both!!!!!

- Scott

Freckles

So we started noticing previously unseen freckles today.

Perhaps a game of connect the dots?

- Scott

Baby names

Well, we finished the 100,001 baby names book and not really sure what we're liking for a boy. I think we have better ideas if it's a girl.

Will probably change our minds entirely by the time the baby gets here.

Anyway, more blood work today for Tanya... and more on Thursday too!

- Scott

It's been a couple days....

Past few days were pretty eventful, but calm. We went to baby's first movie... Clash of the Titans remake (here's a picture of Mom getting popcorn and soda). Let's just say that I'm grateful the baby isn't born yet and has the protection of the womb between baby and movie. Once the baby's arrived I'll be sure to show the original.... just a much better movie.

Met with the doctor yesterday and he and the practice seem pretty decent. Had our first sonogram and found out we're much earlier along than we thought... about 4 weeks, versus the 6-7 that was thought. That probably puts us somewhere between mid December and Christmas time for a due date.

I was offered and accepted a position with the Brownell Center. The salary is as good as I was hoping for and I can start as early as mid-June. We'll have lots of money to buy tons of baby stuff!!! It also puts us in a position to let Tanya stop working in August to go back to school full time and stay home with the baby for the first year or so.

- Scott

Ahhhh....progress!

So Tanya is feeling a little bit better today. Her congestion is still there and giving her a headache.... she is taking Tylenol, but somewhat reluctantly. Overall she is feeling better - and that's definitely good.

I do suppose I'll run out today and put together a "pregnant lady care package" filled with all sorts of soothing and comforting things (you know... hot packs, cold packs, massagers - that sort of thing).

Last eve we had a bit of a tiff - I thought she was being unappreciative, she thought I was insensitive. Ah.... doesn't matter I guess, we kissed and made up... did my share of reassuring her.... she fell asleep.... I tossed in bed until 3 am worrying about things.

I pointed out this site today to Dr. Kang (he is my clinical preceptor and mentor). He thought it was a neat idea and we came to the idea of self publishing these entries and comments in a book after the baby is born. I can then save it for someday - to give to our son or daughter as a keepsake. I'm thinking I'd like to include more pictures - so expect more in the near future.

We think we have come to a decision on what doctor/practice we'll pick. That's one more thing to take off the to do list!

- Scott

All-The-Time Sickness

" I got a stiff neck " she says upon waking. So the average person would rub her neck, loosen it up a little... whatever. Nope... I assess for nuchal rigidity. The good news is she doesn't appear to have meningitis! Also, she hasn't yet complained of congestion, feeling weak or tired.... then again she's been up about 5 minutes.

She's been saying she's glad she doesn't get morning sickness... but that's because she has all-the-time sickness.

Time to make breakfast....

- Scott